tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-44942468382879765962024-02-20T19:57:27.166-08:00Honesty, Honestly"I see my path, but I don't know where it leads. Not knowing where I'm going is what inspires me to travel it.”Netti Ruthhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11933690497259576209noreply@blogger.comBlogger84125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4494246838287976596.post-91704349653804397362015-04-24T21:00:00.001-07:002015-04-24T21:00:27.780-07:00The Common ColdThe Common Cold<br />
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Sniffles and snuffles and coughing and shuffles<br />
Sleeping, repeating, trying some eating<br />
Fretting, regretting, please no more retching<br />
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Hulu and Netflix, hour count: six[flipped]<br />
Breathe in, breathe out, both through the mouth<br />
Alka seltzer and Theraflu, man I sure love you<br />
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I need you but I don't, let me explain. Please come in, but don't stay, my tissues were just too far away.<br />
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<br />Netti Ruthhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11933690497259576209noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4494246838287976596.post-90254039512858253612014-06-01T09:48:00.001-07:002014-06-01T10:28:19.103-07:00Beauty Like Yours<p dir="ltr">Beauty is a funny thing<br>
It quirks and surprises<br>
Strengthens and weakens</p>
<p dir="ltr">It can change people and change plans<br>
It can make us brave<br>
It can make us sad.</p>
<p dir="ltr">Sometimes it's a pretty face<br>
Or shape or sculpture or painting<br>
Beauty on the surface</p>
<p dir="ltr">But it can be something deeper<br>
Something vast and lasting<br>
Something that gets in your soul</p>
<p dir="ltr">I -small - sit and watch your creation<br>
Observing, learning, listening,<br>
Silent.</p>
<p dir="ltr">Beauty like yours deserves attention<br>
Commands praise<br>
Earns adoration</p>
<p dir="ltr">But I - small - sit in silence<br>
Unable to do you justice<br>
Unable to form the words</p>
<p dir="ltr">When Beauty like yours deserves shouts<br>
Of triumph of joy of love<br>
I -small - am only quiet</p>
<p dir="ltr">But what I have<br>
My still tongue, my quiet heart,<br>
My silent reverence, belong to you</p>
<p dir="ltr">Every part of me<br>
Every moment given<br>
To Beauty like yours</p>
Netti Ruthhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11933690497259576209noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4494246838287976596.post-35384528141049620732013-11-22T22:51:00.001-08:002013-11-24T21:15:14.936-08:00Hope for Orbit<div dir="ltr">
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Haze and blur burst to vibrant Light</div>
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Coloring life all hues</div>
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Bathing in glory</div>
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Steady Steady Steady</div>
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Fading</div>
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Painting the world with every tic</div>
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tock, tic</div>
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Showing off, pulling out the stops, putting on a show</div>
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Beauty and magic and mystery and…</div>
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and sinking</div>
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Even flames have color</div>
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Falling planes do too</div>
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And sinking ships</div>
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Slowly--</div>
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Slowly.</div>
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Submit to Darkness</div>
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Hope for orbit.</div>
Netti Ruthhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11933690497259576209noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4494246838287976596.post-86466203262321329192013-10-15T18:30:00.003-07:002013-10-15T18:30:45.023-07:00Is Mark a robot?I'm stuck on the Crucifixion.<br />
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I've read Mark 15 for days.<br />
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At first it was intentional - I didn't want to breeze over the most pivotal choice both man kind and God ever made. And then I was sucked in. I have so many questions.<br />
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Why does Mark kind of gloss over it? Why is there no grief? Is it because he knows what happens next? Is it because his mentor has just faced a similar fate? Is it because there's a sting that Jesus rose and Peter does not?<br />
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I tried to read it without thinking about the next chapter. I tried to read it like someone who doesn't know the story. In Mark, the telling of the murder of Christ is brief. It's kind of has the feel of, "let's get through this bit so we can move on to the rest of the story." He kind of glosses over the unpleasantries.<br />
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In my mind, I picture myself reading this for the first time - I picture myself seeing the scene in my head. If I was still myself, but myself without God, reading this story would send me over the edge.<br />
I have anticipation issues. I always want to know what comes next and I get a bit of anxiety if the next step remains undecided for too long.<br />
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When I read books, I need to know. I've stayed up all night and into the next morning to finish a book because I need to know.<br />
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So, if I were me, but not me, I would have gobbled up this chapter and careened right into the next. "What?! Mary and this guy's mom saw where he was buried? Why does that even matter? Oh my gosh. This is going to be a late night."<br />
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I wonder if that is how Mark felt. I wonder if he was so excited to get on to the next part, the hope part, that he kind of saw the back story as a means to an end. That sounds harsh, which of course is not what I want. I think you get my meaning.<br />
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Part of me understands that. You need history to have present, to have future. And so much of the time I am so ready for what is next I forget to remember that what was before is just as important. We repeat history when we forget it. I repeat history when I forget it. When I forget what God has done, when I forget how far I've come.<br />
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But then, another part of me wonders...Was Mark trying to avoid the grisly stuff? You have to have it in there so the story makes sense, but it's so concise. This life altering, world changing, history making, future forming event is written more like a timeline and less like a story.<br />
This part of me understands too though. How often do we cover up the ugly? How often do we hide the sad and the desperate and the lonely? How many times have we held in our struggle?<br />
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I wonder about Mark. He couldn't have been much older or younger than me. This young man penned an account that is in THE book. You know? This young guy wrote down some one else's story, and it is in the very pages that guide us today. I'd love to ask him what he was thinking. I want to know if that is just the way he writes, if that is just part of his personality.<br />
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Maybe though, he was a trooper. Maybe he wasn't hiding his grief (his mentor had just died after all. That's got to be pretty heart breaking). Maybe he felt led to write this account of Jesus' life. What if he felt led to do it, but he was still sorrowing over the loss of his friend? What if he didn't simply say, "Lord, I can't. It's too much." If he was anything like me, he would have thought and prayed and argued a little, and then, he would have given a brief, "Ok, Lord. I'm in."<br />
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Perhaps Mark doesn't skim through the torture of Jesus for any reason other than he was called to use his gift in a time of pain and grief and sadness. And he answered that call by submitting to God and doing the best job that he could. Despite how he <i>felt.</i><br />
And it's in the <u>Bible</u>. His book is in the <u>Word of God</u>.<br />
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I think that God doesn't always call us to excellence (of course He wants us to be excellent - what Dad wouldn't?). I think that He calls us to submission. And I think from that obedience come things beyond what we can imagine.<br />
Mark's book is in the<u> BIBLE.</u> That blows my mind.<br />
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Side note: I think Mark and I could have been great friends. I bet we'll hang out in heaven.<br />
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We've been reading "The Jesus I Never Knew" By Philip Yancy in my small group (the book is awesome - you should read it. It's challenging me in all kinds of ways). And in there is an incredible quote by C.S. Lewis that I'd never read before (I know that me wanting to quote C.S. Lewis will come as a surprise to you seeing as how I've never referenced him or his work before - get over the shock as best you can).<br />
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<span style="font-family: inherit; font-size: small; font-weight: normal;">“If we consider the unblushing promises of reward … promised in the Gospels, it would seem that our Lord finds our desires not too strong, but too weak. We are half-hearted creatures, fooling about with drink and sex and ambition when infinite joy is offered us, like an ignorant child who wants to go on making mud pies in a slum because he cannot imagine what is meant by the offer of a holiday at sea."</span><br />
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This is such a perfect example.<br />
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Maybe we don't think we measure up to God's standards (Yancy also addresses this in his book - seriously, read it) so He could never possibly want us.<br />
Maybe we have lost the capacity to dream - maybe our hope receivers have shorted out.<br />
Maybe everything looks too bleak - life is too hard, too heart breaking, too soul crushing.<br />
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We become so accustomed to mud pies that we can no longer comprehend the vastness of the ocean.<br />
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I think it's time to wash the mud off my hands and go play in the waves.<br />
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Thanks for reading<br />
<3Netti Ruthhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11933690497259576209noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4494246838287976596.post-17552883316876576772013-08-24T00:10:00.002-07:002013-08-24T00:10:39.500-07:00Promising SunsetsThe other day, the Oregon sunset was a stunner. If you missed it, don't worry, I have pictures. <br /><br />
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I love nature. I don't particularly want bugs (or most animals) to touch me, and I have a semi-irrational fear of most flying beasties. But, that doesn't mean I don't see the beauty in them. Bees and bee like things, for example, are what I would (slightly melodramatically) call my nemesis. But I can appreciate them for their pollinating ways, their intense work ethic, and unwavering devotion to their royalty. <br /><br />
I had a friend jokingly tell me that I am maybe a little over appreciative of nature, but as far as I'm concerned, there's no such thing. (I know someone is going to say something, so I'll add a disclaimer. Yes, worshiping nature is taking zeal for the earth too far. But that's not the page myself, or my friend, were on).<br />
The beauty of this earth is meant to be enjoyed.<br /><br />
I watched it as I walked to my car, trying to examine every fluff of cloud in sight and analyzing the way the lingering light hit each one, and the resulting colors being played upon them. I stared breathlessly at the vastness as I drove down a nearly empty road, the white lines reflecting the sky and glowing pink. I shifted my attention off the clouds to the setting sun itself, bursting orange and pink. It glowed softly now, it's work almost done for the day. Where the light was still the brightest, the color was intense, making it look kind of shiny. It looked like orange lava in the sky, molten and dangerous and stunning.<br />
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Smiling, I congratulated God on his creation, and told him what an awesome show he was putting on for us tonight. "Man, Lord" I said, "that really is gorgeous. I know you don't need my affirmation, but gosh. That is some good work."<br />
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It was right then, in that moment, I felt him whisper, "just wait until you see it later. Wait until I show you the sun all over the world."<br />
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That's when I started crying.<br />
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But then I realized where I was (exactly the spot my dear friend and I had been stranded on the side of the road, in a summer storm, just a month ago) and started laughing.<br />
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After I somewhat regained my composure, I asked him, "How can you do that to me? How can you just drop a promise into my heart like it's nothing?" And boom. That's when it hit me. To God, it IS nothing. Not that it means nothing, giving your children gifts always means something. But that it IS nothing, because he can do anything.<br />
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In that moment I was so blown away. I could almost picture God smiling at me, like a person smiles as they watch someone unwrap what they know to be the perfect gift.<br />
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It is sometimes so hard to believe that my perfect Lord loves imperfect me. That my blunt and bumbling ways don't deter him or his will. But the reality is that we are all SO deeply loved by a God who delights in giving us the things our hearts need.<br />
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And that's just pretty dang sweet.<br />
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<3<br /><br />Netti Ruthhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11933690497259576209noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4494246838287976596.post-91543114112110870122013-07-16T12:49:00.001-07:002013-07-16T12:51:36.306-07:00Evergreen<u>Evergreen</u><br />
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I go through these phases.<br />
Dark and thick and creeping.<br />
During the day it's rough, but the worst is at night when I'm sleeping.<br />
See I go through these phases -- Phases of nightmares.<br />
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The first ones triggered by some silly movie, the next few much more real.<br />
Much more dark much more dense, much more evil<br />
A mugging, a murder, an unexpected death.<br />
Creeping and crawling and writhing in my subconscious, stealing my breath.<br />
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And, bam! Launched back into reality, I jerk awake.<br />
Unsure in the dark, unknown what is true and what is fake.<br />
It's just a dream, shake it off. That's what I tell myself<br />
when I sit up in a cold sweat. It's just a dream, shake it off.<br />
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Darkness follows me into the light.<br />
Ice begins to challenge heat.<br />
Night is on Day time's heels and tastes the sweet<br />
taste of victory.<br />
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It followed me in a haze around my head<br />
Until the crack, when my smooth exterior broke<br />
How do You look in me and see something so pretty<br />
When I look in and see something so flawed, unfinished gritty.<br />
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So afraid of being loved, I built a great, vast wall<br />
I built it up so just enough could get in, which was hardly any at all.<br />
On my knees, vulnerable, weak, lost<br />
Came the whisper, "<a href="http://www.amazon.com/The-Evergreen-Wood-Alan-Perry/dp/0840791453">Let it go, Little Mouse</a>"<br />
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">"Ring the bells that still can ring</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">Forget your perfect offering</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">There is a crack in everything</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">That's how the light gets in"</span></div>
<span style="font-size: x-small;">-Leonard Cohen</span><br />
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<br />Netti Ruthhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11933690497259576209noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4494246838287976596.post-58574258812298235142013-05-03T11:20:00.002-07:002013-12-10T20:42:22.204-08:00Seasons<br />
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<span style="line-height: 115%;">Seasons</span></div>
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<span style="line-height: 115%;"><br /></span></div>
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<span style="line-height: 115%;">Rainy days and clear nights, but cold all the way through<span style="font-size: small;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="line-height: 115%;">The clouds and sun always fight, for who has the better view<o:p></o:p></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
<span style="line-height: 115%;">Spring has sprung in the Great Northwest, and it is prettier
than most<o:p></o:p></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
<span style="line-height: 115%;">All of nature dressed in its best, as if to make Winter a
ghost.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="line-height: 115%;">Blue as eyes and oceans deep and wider than the plains<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="line-height: 115%;">Puffs of white drift lazily, over swaying fields of grain.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
<span style="line-height: 115%;">Summer skies fly far too fast, warming us with bright sun<o:p></o:p></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
<span style="line-height: 115%;">We must learn to make them last, before the warm days are
done<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
<span style="line-height: 115%;">Then Fall arrives cold and bright, shining ever more<o:p></o:p></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
<span style="line-height: 115%;">Clouds turn more grey than white, warning us of storms<o:p></o:p></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
<span style="line-height: 115%;">Leaves change colors, yellow, orange, red, and brown<o:p></o:p></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
<span style="line-height: 115%;">And then slowly join the others, to lay upon the ground<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
<span style="line-height: 115%;">Cozy on the inside and dark on the out, as Christmas time
draws near<o:p></o:p></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
<span style="line-height: 115%;">To remind us what the season is about, Harold Angels bring
cheer<o:p></o:p></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
<span style="line-height: 115%;">Grey and cold and wet and dark, it seems it will never end<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="line-height: 115%;">But then sun peaks through like a spark, Spring is around the
bend.<span style="font-size: small;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
Netti Ruthhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11933690497259576209noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4494246838287976596.post-29191726107104284452013-05-03T02:33:00.003-07:002013-05-03T02:33:46.639-07:00Locked OutI'm going to tell a story today. It's 2am and I just got home. I can't remember the last time I did that. I thought I'd go straight to sleep when I made it to my bed, but I just had ice cream and I am too hopped up on sugar to sleep. But it was ice cream with girls I love, so it's worth it =)<br /><br />Tonight, I went to the Iron Man 3 movie premier with a group of friends, some old, some new. It was a good movie, maybe my favorite of the three. I recommend it =)<br /><br />But the story I want to tell, is not about the movie, or about my sugar high induced blog post. No, the story I want to tell is far more embarrassing, as many good stories are.<br />
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My friend and I had planned to meet at the theater to wait in line for the movie. However, I beat her there and decided to go get dinner since I had some time. So I drove out to Winco and go about my shopping. As I'm perusing the salads, a man walked up and stood [far too closely for my comfort] next to me. He had his phone in his hand, and was playing music loudly. I accidentally made eye contact with him - mistake. He then started singing along and doing a little bob to the music and he kept trying to make eye contact again. At least, I'm assuming that is what he was doing...he tried to wriggle in front of me twice =P<br /><br />
So, I quickly made my selection, and carried on my merry way, but he followed me! Not directly behind me, but on the other side of the bins, staring, singing, and bobbing all the way. He finally made his way to the check out as I took my sweet time looking at drinks. I didn't feel like he was particularly creepy or anything, it was mostly uncomfortable and amusing for me =P. You know how sometimes the beginning of a situation happens and you are suddenly struck with the feeling that this is probably a bad place for you to be right at that moment? It wasn't quite that bad =P<br />
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So I pay for my things, and reach into my pocket for my keys, but come up empty. I try all my pockets, nothing. So I go back everywhere I picked something up and so might have set my keys down. Still nothing. So, I walk out to my car, fervently hoping that I somehow managed to leave the door unlocked - no luck. I did however, see through the window, my cell phone. So, both my keys and my phone are locked in the car, and I am at a store outside of my usual choices and only Anna knows where I am.<br />
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So, like a child, I had to go into Customer Service and ask the nice lady if I can use their phone to call my parents. I call one family after another, leaving messages because none of us tend to answer calls from unknown numbers. I stood there listening to ring after ring and praying that someone would listen to their voicemail and come save me.<br />
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I walked back out to my car, standing facing incoming traffic in case someone should appear. I drank a whole can of Arizona Tea just in about ten minutes out of sheer nervousness. As I stood there , I realized that it would probably be at least an hour before anyone made it my way, if they had even gotten my messages at all. I stood there, just hanging out, trying to decide if I wanted chap stick badly enough to go buy a stick from inside or just tough it out.<br />
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I had to dodge both bird and bee that came after my dinner and my tea. I felt helpless as I saw my phone light up through the window as my friend grew more and more concerned. As time passed, I waited feeling very foolish and careless and embarrassed. I started talking to God, just hanging out, you know, not much else to do in the Winco parking lot by my locked car. I prayed, "Lord please make someone come quickly! Or maybe someone with the same kind of car as me can get it unlocked! That'd be cool" And as I was talking, I realized that I had a choice. I could be all bummed and frustrated and insecure about becoming a permanent fixture of the Lancaster Winco Parking Lot, or, I could choose to laugh and be light about this less than ideal situation I had gotten myself into.<br />
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And, lo and behold! My sister came in like the Calvary to save my silly skin. She brought me my spare AND an apple - which for me, is like someone bringing me candy =P]<br />
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And that is the story of how I spent about an hour alone in the Winco parking lot on Iron Man afternoon. It;s not fun, I don't recommend it =P But I do recommend making sure that you have people in your life that have got your back. Even thought I couldn't get a hold of my family, and they couldn't get a hold of me, I didn't doubt for a second that one of them would come to my rescue eventually. They're pretty great =)<br /><br />Thanks for Reading <3<br />
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I've always found this incredibly odd but, upon further research, it appears I'M the odd one. Surprise! =P<br />I prefer sweet music when I work out. Music like the Civil Wars, The Freelance Whales, or The Phantom of the Opera [I love musicals. I have no shame]. I guess I find it soothing. Maybe it's a difference in personalities - for me, getting "amped up" takes an incredible amount of emotional energy. Music isn't going to cut it. And on top of that, if I'm going to get all emotional, I certainly won't have a good work out! Emotions are distracting things, after all.<br /></div>
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But my brother, loves adrenaline. He loves to feel motivated and stirred to move. I think he loves that rush, and the endorphins don't suck either.</div>
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All of that to say, that recently I've been listening to Gungor when I work out. They are so wonderful, I think everyone should love them. </div>
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I was running on the track behind my house this evening and in the midst of the pretty dusk sky and the less pretty dusky bugs flying into my face, I was struck anew by a line of a song that I've heard many times.</div>
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<span style="background-color: white;"><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial; font-size: 13px;">"And at my final breath</span><br style="border: 0px none; font-family: Verdana, Arial; font-size: 13px; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;" /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial; font-size: 13px;">I hope that I can say</span><br style="border: 0px none; font-family: Verdana, Arial; font-size: 13px; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;" /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial; font-size: 13px;">I’ve fought the good fight of faith"</span><br style="border: 0px none; font-family: Verdana, Arial; font-size: 13px; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;" /><br /><div style="text-align: left;">
THAT is what resonates with my heart. That at the end of my mortal life, my legacy is that I have fought the good fight of faith. I'm currently putting that into practice as I gear up to enter a Bachelor's program within the next year, and then a Master's soon after that. I don't know where I am headed, and the idea of leaving everything and everyone I am familiar with scares the living daylights outta me. But I am determined. I want to hear and obey. The song continues like this:</div>
<br style="border: 0px none; font-family: Verdana, Arial; font-size: 13px; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;" /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial; font-size: 13px;">"I pray your glory shines</span><br style="border: 0px none; font-family: Verdana, Arial; font-size: 13px; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;" /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial; font-size: 13px;">through this doubting heart of mine</span><br style="border: 0px none; font-family: Verdana, Arial; font-size: 13px; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;" /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial; font-size: 13px;">so my world would know that You</span><br style="border: 0px none; font-family: Verdana, Arial; font-size: 13px; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;" /><br style="border: 0px none; font-family: Verdana, Arial; font-size: 13px; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;" /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial; font-size: 13px;">You are my strength</span><br style="border: 0px none; font-family: Verdana, Arial; font-size: 13px; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;" /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial; font-size: 13px;">You and You alone</span><br style="border: 0px none; font-family: Verdana, Arial; font-size: 13px; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;" /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial; font-size: 13px;">You and You alone</span><br style="border: 0px none; font-family: Verdana, Arial; font-size: 13px; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;" /><span style="font-family: Verdana, Arial; font-size: 13px;">Keep bringing me back home"</span></span></div>
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Netti Ruthhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11933690497259576209noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4494246838287976596.post-20981736800258695152013-03-23T23:56:00.002-07:002013-03-23T23:56:30.045-07:00Ch-ch-ch changiingShort post, I just had some thoughts that I wanted to share.<br />
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I went on a hike with a dear friend of mine today. We've known each other since the 6th grade and have remained friends through all kinds of phases and stages that our lives have wandered through. Even without the good company, deep conversation, and beautiful Oregon, that in itself is pretty dang cool.<br />
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I love hiking, I love being outside [as long as no flying beasts show themselves...the little devils.] I love seeing how nature changes and yet still somehow remains comfortingly constant. I've hiked the trail we were on before, and it was wonderful to have my memory jogged as we turned corners and went up hills and saw things that were familiar to me, but still not quite the same as they once were. A newly fallen tree, different flowers and colors, the way the water changed course to acclimate to the new additions to its current. All so very pretty and wild.<br />
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Something that popped up in our conversation was that neither of us really saw the draw in staying the same people we once were. Our high school selves, for instance. I wouldn't want someone I knew in high school to talk to me and tell me I hadn't changed - I would want them to see my heart and how it's grown and learned and loved. Not the scared 16 year old I once was. I would want them to see the me I am now - the reflection of the God I love so dearly, the impact different experiences have had on my world view and on my messy heart.<br />
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I thought the irony of these desires being reflected in the surrounding nature was worth a mention. If I hiked the same trail over and over and nothing ever changed, I would be concerned. For there to be life, there must be change. Otherwise there is no room for new life, for growth or development. If plants never died, if trees never fell, the soil would be depleted of its nutrients. Much the same way a stagnant life leads to mediocrity.<br />
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I suppose there is something to be said for the dangers of too much change as well - too much change creates instability and doesn't allow for roots to grow. I happen to like change so this right here is my danger zone.<br />
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I suppose that a balance of times of change and times of growth, like in the wilderness of our great world, is what really allows growth and maturity. It seems to me that no matter how we try to make things happen in our own power, you can't have good growth without change, and you can't have good changes without growth.<br />
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Thanks for reading =)<br />
<br />Netti Ruthhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11933690497259576209noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4494246838287976596.post-64162562078325703632013-02-23T09:27:00.001-08:002013-02-23T09:27:11.625-08:001 Samuel 16:7There's this verse that is fairly well known, that I came across in my Bible reading recently. I'm so terrible at memorizing the addresses of verses, I can tell you what it says, but when it comes to where it says it, I'm generally at a loss. Needless to say, I was a tad surprised when I stumbled upon it and was struck by that realization - almost a deja vu - of, "Hey! I know this!"<br /><br />The verse is 1 Samuel 16:7<br />
"But the Lord said to Samuel, 'Do not consider his appearance or his height, for I have rejected him. The Lord does not look at the things people look at. <u>People look at the outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart."</u><br />
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I have a distinct memory of the first time I heard this verse. I was visiting a friend's youth thing...I only remember there being girls there, so maybe it wasn't their main youth group. But it was "inside-out" day and I remember thinking that was dumb and why on earth would we turn our clothes inside-out when they were perfectly fine inside-in? Things of that nature in youth culture still puzzle me to this day.<br />
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Back to the point. I remember hearing this verse - it was the memory verse for the night - and being comforted by it. Even though all these girls I didn't know were seeing the awkward, insecure outside appearance of me, God was seeing my heart. And that is the vein I've remembered this verse in over the years. I've remembered it as a consolation when I was feeling down or judged or unseen. I knew that God hadn't just looked at the spacey, overly friendly, day dreaming child that I was. I knew that He wouldn't merely glance at the scared, rabbit-like, under socialized middle-schooler or the quiet, insecure, lonely high-schooler. He hasn't just seen the sad 18 year old, the lost 20 year old, or the aimless 23 year old.<br />
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My God sees something far deeper, far more moving. He sees the heart. He has seen my unwavering love for foreign lands and people. He has glimpsed into the vulnerable places that humans don't see. He has seen the mess and the confusion and the frustration. He has seen the beauty and purity and the relentless yearning to be in His will. To be on the path I should be on, at just the right place on that path. He sees the desire and the love and the depths down to my core. THAT is where He looks. Not at the bad hair days, not at the nail biting, or the weird stuff my skin does every time the weather changes.<br />
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But, as I read this verse - maybe even for the first time in my adult life - I was struck by something. Since my wonderful God dives deep into the mess of my heart instead of looking just at my outward self, doesn't that then beg a question to be asked? Am I proud of what would be found in my heart if God opened it up and took a peek? Am I ashamed of things He might find hidden away in there, or is it an honest representation of the life I live on the outside? Is it weaker, stronger, dirtier than my outward life? Or does it reflect the advice I give, the words I "preach?"<br />
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The fact that the God of the Universe is looking at my heart makes me want to have the cleanest heart possible. Not in a "Dad's coming! hide that junk!" kind of way. More in the way we want our Dads at our sporting events, musical performances, plays, work places, etc. We want him there so he can see us and how well we're doing. We want him there to be proud of us. It is in that way that I want my King to see my heart. I want to be doing well, hitting home runs, singing my best song, and for a smile to touch his face. I want a clean heart.<br />
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I know that there are going to be times when my heart is tangled and messy, but that is where the comforting side of this verse comes in. Yes God is seeing my heart, but He is the BEST dad ever. My dad is pretty incredible and often says the right things at the right time. But God? HE is truly perfection. He knows how to deal with my mistakes and short comings. He knows how to handle my sadness and disappointment. So we don't need to be intimidated that He's taking a look around our vulnerable, sometimes fragile, hearts.<br />
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He is so good =)<br /><br />Thanks for reading <3Netti Ruthhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11933690497259576209noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4494246838287976596.post-48246684368289629642013-01-02T00:30:00.004-08:002013-01-02T00:30:56.596-08:00Though I've yet to see your face<u>Though I've yet to see your face</u><br />
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When I don't feel it, when I can't find you,<br />
And seems you're nowhere, with not even a trace.<br />
When I can't say your name, when I don't know you and<br />
Though I've yet to see your face<br />
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I will hold on, I will be true<br />
I will be still, I will listen, I will wait-<br />
When I don't feel it, when I can't find you.<br />
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With heart, with strength, with faith,<br />
I restlessly await, wavering for none.,<br />
Though I've yet to see your face<br />
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I can't help but to yearn, is there else to do?<br />
When my ears don't recognize your voice,<br />
When I don't feel it, when I can't find you<br />
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The day will come, like fresh morning dew<br />
But for now, I wait in this same time and place-<br />
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The Little Drummer Boy came on the radio today and even though I've heard it countless times, I was struck with something new. I heard the familiar "rum pum pum pum"s and began to sing along and was suddenly hit with a feeling of excitement. Even though I'm well aware the story in the song is fictional, I could picture the scene so perfectly. Can you imagine how awesome it would have been to BE there? To welcome the baby king? I just got so giddy at the thought of it. What an honor it would have been to be there, to be present at the arrival of the Savior.<br />
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But the more I thought about it, the actual birth of Jesus, the more I began to realize that His birth wasn't celebrated. Again, I love Christmas, I know this stuff. This was just the first time I could picture it. I could picture the stable, the dirty, smelly, noisy, stable. We often think about the angels singing in the sky, proclaiming the arrival of the King, but I think we rarely think about donkeys braying, or even the more vulgar sounds of animals doing their business in nearby stalls. No little drummer boy to be found. How's that for a welcoming?<br />
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A pitiful number of people were excited for Jesus' birth. There was a decree for His death, there were non believers, people who had given up long ago, people who believed and hated Him from the start. But there were a few who honored and adored Him from the very beginning and I am so thankful for the nurturing they gave to that big God in a small body. I am so thankful that God was merciful enough to show us love in the most tangible way He could.<br />
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Can you see it? Can you picture that scene?<br />
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For the first time, I really can.<br />
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I can see the pain on Mary's face, and the wonder and terror on Joseph's.<br />
I can hear the animals and the night noises. The sounds drifting in from the over-full inn, and the regular echos of wind and people in the street.<br />
I can smell the stable animals and the straw they live in.<br />
I can imagine the love and wonder the earthly parents of the Savior King must have felt.<br />
I can sense the weight of prophecy.<br />
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Picturing this scene fills me to the brim with joy and peace and gratitude. I am in awe at the gift we were given. I am in awe at how we, how I, sometimes squander it. How I sometimes forget it. How it is easy to take for granted the magnitude of this man's life, from start to finish.<br />
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All of this to say, that Christmas is truly my favorite time of year. It is a whole season that, as a Christian, pushes me to remember, to focus, to act, on the birth of my Jesus. And every year, it is my prayer to get a little better at carrying remembrance with me farther and farther into the new year. That I might never let it slip from my mind that we are deeply loved by the Father. And that the joy from that knowledge might overflow onto others.<br />
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The gift buying, the secret keeping, the decoration, and the bliss giving season is wonderful and heaps of fun. But I think it would do me well to recall a little better, that the true meaning [yeah, I said it] of Christmas, is that God loves us. He loves us madly and selflessly, without reason, and far beyond our deepest secrets and worst flaws.<br />
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Merry Christmas and thanks for reading<br />
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<br />Netti Ruthhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11933690497259576209noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4494246838287976596.post-25136741415399537802012-11-22T00:22:00.000-08:002012-11-22T22:37:17.133-08:00ThankfulThis evening, I had the privilege of seeing something beautiful. I was at work (yes that's right, something beautiful, at work) but not in my normal capacity.<br />
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See the school district hires my company to provide service in the school kitchens, so when an organization wants to use those school kitchens outside of their normal function, they need someone from my company there to "supervise." To be totally honest, I did like no supervising. I answered a few questions, helped out when I was needed, and that was about it. They were grown, intelligent people, they didn't need a babysitter.<br />
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Anyhow, the group that was there tonight was from <a href="http://www.outwardchurch.com/">Outward Church</a>, and they were there doing a massive amount of prep work for tomorrow, when the real show happens. They provide families with some cheer. This year, over 100 families are being blessed with a full turkey dinner, a bag of toys, a bag of useful things, a bag of Christmas decorations, and a Christmas tree to hang some of those decorations on.<br />
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Sounds fairly simple, right? Pretty much all of us can picture what a Thanksgiving meal looks like, and how. a decorated home shines. Now picture it times 100. Yeah.<br />
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And this is not the only day they've been working on this event. Aside from all of the planning involved, there was also a crew who drove out to Scio to collect some donated Christmas trees. They cut, loaded, and hauled over 100 trees in the pouring rain. And then they unloaded all of them at the school we were at today, and trimmed them up all pretty, flattened out the bottoms, and placed them in tree stands to be delivered in the morning. That's right. ALL of the goodies heading to these local families are being hand delivered by volunteers ON Thanksgiving Day. And then yesterday there was a group of people working to prepare the side dishes, and then today they were beautifying the trees and cooking turkeys and organizing everything so the delivery will go smoothly tomorrow.<br />
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It cost $70 to fund one family, and while a few things were donated from businesses the money was largely raised from within their church. Everyone knows what the economy is like right now, money is tight for a lot of people, and yet they gave to allow families of these elementary kids to have a brighter holiday. They gave money, resources, and time.<br />
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I didn't know what I was in for when I agreed to take this shift. My thought process was, "Sure I'll work, it'll help make up for all the days off recently" and then I got there and was so blown away by how much larger of a scale this thing actually was. It was beautiful.<br />
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I didn't hear a single person say they were tired or didn't want to be there or even hint at being grumpy. One guy even told me he had worked a 15hr day yesterday and when I said, "and then you've been here all day?!:" He replied with, "Yeah, but this isn't work, this is fun" (I feel like I should mention that he was covered in mud from Christmas trees)<br />
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I'm not trying to say that this church is better than another. #1, it isn't true, and #2, they probably wouldn't like me saying that =P But the attitude of joy and generosity that they projected was lovely. I think it is important to stress (as if I haven't done it enough) that this was not a fundraiser for the church. They weren't getting paid for being there, they in fact paid to be there.<br />
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I think there is a danger in church culture (or in really any culture) to get caught up in raising money for ourselves. To clarify, I don't think there is anything wrong with fundraisers, it is GOOD to build a budget. But when was the last time I actually did something with a group of my peers that benefited our community? That didn't charge them for a service? That was just a gift? I'm a little ashamed to admit that it's been a while.<br />
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I think that far too often our focus tends to be on how we are going to flourish and not often enough on how we can help others flourish. Even the good intentions of, "once we flourish then we can help others flourish better" can be a trap. Maybe we need to listen more and worry less. Maybe we need to be willing to move if God says move. To trust Him enough that maybe we use our withering budget on someone who doesn't have one at all and trust that God will always provide what we actually need. Again, I'm not saying that it's a bad thing to have a budget, and if God says to raise one, then I think we should do it. I just also think we should be listening. I know nothing about this church or these people or their budget, so I'm not trying to compare, I was just inspired by them tonight.<br />
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They will be in my prayers tomorrow, that hand delivering everything goes smoothly, and that hearts are affected and softened. And for energy for those dear volunteers, lots of energy.<br />
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Side note, one of the pastors at this church apparently knows my Uncle Levi because his wife met Levi while she was in YWAM in Hawaii while Levi was on staff there. Small world =P<br />
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In short, I'm thankful that even when I feel like I have little, I have a lot. I have far more than a good amount of the earth does, and I thank God SO much for that. I'm thankful for people like the ones I met tonight, who inspire and challenge me, even while being total strangers. I'm thankful for the family I have, the wonderful people God gave me to are beyond awesome. I'm thankful that tomorrow (er, later today) my home is going to be full of people I love, and who love me. I'm so thankful for my friends who hold me accountable, and for my church community that is always teaching me something. And I'm so thankful that God plucked me from a life of death, that He saved me from a life of hopelessness and fear and gave the choice of having one to work at and to cherish and to thrive in. And I'm thankful for yams and turkey.<br />
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Please don't mistake my meaning. I do not mean to say that I find the Bible boring. I do mean to say that perhaps I shouldn't have chosen to read Isaiah simply because I hadn't done it yet, because, let me tell you, it has not felt like the words of the Living God. It has felt like the words of a dead man. </div>
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To the point: There was something in Isaiah that I read a while ago that I still just find so very humbling and awesome. I told the ladies I have a small group with [via our Facebook group. Lanta, I'm getting dependent] and I thought I'd copy it here because the more I write [in this case, type. But yes, I did also write it down.] something, the more I remember it and I need to remember this. And I think it's worth sharing with other like-minded people.</div>
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<i>I just read Isaiah 53, which is all about the horrors Christ endured to save us. The humiliation, taking our sin, dying, etc. And it occurred to me, it's a very sobering thing to remember the trauma Christ endured for us, for me. It wasn't even a temporary thing, like "endure these terrible things and then it'll all be over". God <u>still</u> hurts for us. No, not a temporary thing, but a tangible thing. A physical thing so that our weak, human minds could wrap around a very small piece of a very big concept - sacrifice. The very act of Christ physically dying before human eyes, was every bit as loving as the actual death itself. </i></div>
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I cannot think of a reason why God would grace us with His presence here on this earth, other than for our benefit. He didn't need to die, he didn't need to show Himself to the world in order to defeat Satan. No, I think He did it the way He did it, just for the sake of us. For the sake of our hearts, to physically show us how loved we are by our King. He didn't have to let us in on it, but He did.</div>
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My prayers were spoken in her voice.</div>
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Quiet and strong, wise and brave,</div>
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She read my heart back to me.</div>
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As if I had handed her its ragged pages.</div>
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Divine guesses and nudges,</div>
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Raised to being, brought to life.</div>
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Drawing faint and broken lines.</div>
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Pushing, pulling, and prompting</div>
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The kindness out in me</div>
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Raising my chin, lifting my eyes,</div>
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Squaring my shoulders, bearing my fear.</div>
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She became a bridge, a direct line,</div>
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A switch board, an ancient door.</div>
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She was all wonder and heart</div>
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As if she were the wardrobe or the painting.</div>
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And I, the fresh snow, the frozen stream.</div>
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I, the stone fox, felt You like the warmth of Spring.</div>
Netti Ruthhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11933690497259576209noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4494246838287976596.post-17421150193017900242012-10-13T16:12:00.001-07:002012-10-13T16:12:08.849-07:00People Suck.You know what?<br />
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People are messy. Community is messy. Love is Messy [yes, with a capitol M].<br />
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We, as humans, suck.<br />
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We really do. When I think of the numerous times I've hurt people, whether intentionally or accidentally, the amount is staggering. When I remember the times I've felt hurt by others, the numbers just keep climbing.<br />
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We are capable of the ugliest of traits. We can be selfish, stubborn, cruel, manipulative, and greedy. We have all been hurt - but we have also all hurt others as well.<br />
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We suck.<br />
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But that's what makes redemption so cool! The inconceivable way that God can take my worst traits and mold me and grow me and USE me for good is breath taking. Because let me tell you, I'm selfish. I'm selfish with God IN my life, can you imagine if I chose to ignore him, or even if I didn't believe, how much more selfishly I'd act? My motivation would probably center a great deal more around what I want. I think I'd still want to help people because that is ingrained in me, but I bet you there'd be a lot more of a self serving attitude behind it.<br />
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Yeah, we suck. And the stark contrast between how much we suck and how much God doesn't is really a beautiful thing.<br />
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So even though people suck, there is so much redemption and so much hope in the love of God. Gosh He's cool =)<br />
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<br />Netti Ruthhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11933690497259576209noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4494246838287976596.post-53000360051186880372012-08-20T19:36:00.001-07:002012-08-20T19:36:35.703-07:0010,000 ReasonsThere's a song we sing at church that I really, really love. It's called 10,000 Reasons by Matt Redmond and <a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=51fQIiHlu8Q">this</a> is a link to a YouTube video of it. Musically speaking, I honestly prefer the way I've heard it in worship rather than the original, but that is mostly because I love drums. But that doesn't matter because the lyrics are what make this song so close to my heart.<br />
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"Bless the Lord, oh my soul, oh my soul. Worship His holy name. Sing like never before, oh my soul. I'll worship Your holy name."<br />
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Something about that resonates with me. Maybe it's the desire to somehow repay God for the good He's done. Maybe it's an attempt to display complete adoration of my King. I don't really know, but every time I think of these words, something stirs in my heart and I am moved beyond belief.<br />
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This might sound natural to those of you who have experienced something similar, and would probably sound totally insane to those of you who haven't. But the presence and love of God is very, very real.<br />
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I can't think of words that accurately describe the pull I feel, or the reaction I have to certain things. But I do know this - as much as they well something up in my spirit, I have no idea what they mean.<br />
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I have no idea how to "bless the Lord." I can't fathom how my weak and human and sinful soul could bless the highest power, the most loving Father.<br />
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I started thinking about this about a month ago, and I still don't have an answer, but I have a theory. The sermon at church isn't online yet so I can't give you a link. But let me tell you, I am the luckiest girl alive to have such an incredible, dedicated, and wise community around me. Anyhow, the sermons on Sunday centered around God as a Father.<br />
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One of the men preaching told a story about his young daughter had cut her foot and he had to take her into the ER for stitches. She was only about 6 years old and she was scared [and really, who can blame her? No one, that's who]. But she pulled closer to her dad, and he drew closer to her and it was a natural response because even though there was pain coming, they love each other. He said that even though it was scary and his little girl was in pain, it was one of his fondest memories of the two of them and he was so blessed by her closeness.<br />
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And THAT is my thought process. That God loves His children and it's that simple. That our Father is blessed by his kids' love, by our closeness.<br />
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It's not some tradsies thing, it's not some kind of test or gamble. It's really just love. And from that love stems our obedience and the beautiful, beautiful thing that is relationship with God.<br />
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Cool, huh? =)<br />
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Thanks for reading =)</div>
Netti Ruthhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11933690497259576209noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4494246838287976596.post-21803631521564863172012-08-16T17:40:00.001-07:002012-08-16T17:40:09.151-07:00Camping recap and a small smorgasbord of emotions.The last few days, I've been camping with my family and a couple of friends. I always look forward to camping, I'm always up for an adventure. But it seems that year after year, trip after trip, I end up sick. It seems that my body doesn't adjust well to different germs, but alas.<div>
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The trip was only four days, but we just did too many fun things to mention all of them. My brother caught and killed his first fish, we saw a UFO [almost definitely not, but it looked like no other flying vehicle I've ever seen before], went canoeing [fell out of the canoe as well], and really just got to spend some time away from the every day. Which was lovely =)</div>
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One thing I was struck by though, was how much I missed the regular crew of people I pray with and hang out with. I mean, we were only gone four days, and we knew we were coming home. It wasn't like, "we're leaving and we're not sure when we're coming back." And I had my family plus a couple extras with me, so it's not like I was lonely. But I was really hit pretty solidly how important that particular group of people is to me, and how much my life is impacted by their presence. I've never been so challenged in my life, and I've never been more committed and on board with a cause as I am right now. They're my team mates and some of my best friends and I KNOW that they have my back and that they love me.</div>
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That being said, I came home to a video that my lovely friend had posted on Facebook and I was really impressed with the eloquence and wit that this woman conveyed her message with. Waiting for the man God has for us is something that I think most girls my age [of all ages really] have a hard time with, and I'm sure there's more than a few men who struggle with the same thing. <a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=igCj3jsbcqs">This woman</a> does such a good job being funny and being wise and encouraging, even if you're not a fan of spoken word, I strongly suggest you give her a listen.</div>
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Netti Ruthhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11933690497259576209noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4494246838287976596.post-53619974051898355092012-08-11T15:34:00.002-07:002012-11-03T00:40:50.373-07:00Woopsies!On Monday, August 6th 2012, I experienced something semi horrific, but mostly hilarious. I was at Applebees with some friends for trivia night. The evening was winding down and the game was wrapping up and I had to make a trip to the ladies' room. So off I went, minding my own business.<br />
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Now, I have this irrational fear that I will somehow end up in the men's restroom in public places. I often have a sudden jolt of fear, <i>"Am I in the right bathroom? Are those women's feet in the stall next to me?" </i>This time was no different, I walked into the stall and noticed the seat was up and had my little mini panic session. Shoulder helper number one made an appearance and whispered, "Don't be dumb, Netti. It's the end of the night, they just cleaned the bathrooms." That was good enough for me, I went about my merry way and finished my business. </div>
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I was so very lost in my own world that I didn't even hear another person enter the room. I exited the bathroom stall and headed for the sink When, to my horror, I noticed a man - a MAN - standing at a urinal - I repeat, URINAL.</div>
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That's right. I was INSIDE the men's restroom at Applebees, and hadn't noticed until I had to walk behind a man standing at the urinal. He glanced over his shoulder slightly, but I don't know if he saw me, apparently men don't make eye contact in the bathroom =P </div>
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It didn't compute at first. My thought process went kind of like, <i>what is that man doing in the bath-OH MY GOSH I'M IN THE MEN'S ROOM.</i></div>
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And then I was faced with the dilemma of hand washing. I had already been en route to the sink, but had changed course to the door, but then every ounce of habit revolted and I went back to the sink, when shoulder helper number two yelled, "ARE YOU CRAZY?! You're in the men's bathroom! Do NOT wash your hands, RUN!"</div>
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I booked it right out of that bathroom and walked calmly [but briskly =P] back to my table where I promptly applied hand-sanitizer and texted my mom the story. Who, then told me that my dad had picked up her phone and had dissolved into laughter =P</div>
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However, that is not the end of the story.</div>
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We finished the night, and one of the teams of friends sitting near by had been one of the runner ups. A man approached them and began explaining to them that when their team wins second or third place, they give their prize to the runner up. I looked to see who this man was, and it was HIM. So again, I did the sane thing, and ran. </div>
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My brother found me outside and laughed at my embarrassment, as well as laughed with me over the awkwardness of the situation.</div>
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True story, I can't make this stuff up, I love my life. </div>
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Netti Ruthhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11933690497259576209noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4494246838287976596.post-33587330283466160562012-08-09T16:51:00.002-07:002012-08-11T01:48:29.904-07:00The demon wasps of Green PeterIt began with a group of friends wanting to enjoy the sun in Oregon's fleeting summer. And if we caught a few fish in the process, that would make the outing that much sweeter.<br />
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We met too early in the morning, which accounted for our goofy behavior, but I feel that goofy is one of the better emotions to begin the day with. The seven of us (Myself, Jay, Kessi, Jon, Jeremiah, Megan, and Calvin) caravan-ed our two cars out to Albany where we added an eighth member (Josiah) to our crew. A quickish stop at the store and we were off!<br />
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We stopped at a little diner for breakfast right off the highway...I actually have no idea what the place was called, but it was phenomenal. We did have to wait a while for our food, but it was well worth the wait. Our portions were more than generous (I gave half of mine to the fellas I was sitting with) and the prices were more than fair. Many of us opted for the "Super Special" which consisted of two eggs, two links, and a giant (I mean GIANT) pancake (one pancake was probably the size of 4 normal ones.) for a grand total of $4.25.<br />
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We made our way to Green Peter Reservoir, passing through Lebanon and parts of Sweet Home, and ended at a place called Thistle Creek. I'll admit, I did choose the spot partially because of its name. I just really like thistles. And it didn't disappoint! I did see one thistle off the trail, and that was enough for me =)<br />
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We parked in a nearly empty parking lot - where there was no fee for the day use area! - and unloaded. My poor little sister started feeling sick so she stayed up top in the picnic area with a book. But the rest of us grabbed snacks, fishing poles, and swim suits and headed down the trail.<br />
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There is a reason the area is called "Green Peter", the water is colored a stunning emerald green and looks like sea glass from higher up the mountain. The view was terrific and I was, not for the first time this summer, struck by how lovely our state is and how incredibly glad I am to live here. We settled on a spot that we felt could have some decent fishing advantages as well as swimming space for those who weren't fishing.<br />
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Megan and I had gone back up the trail a ways to make sure that where the guys were headed was where we wanted to settle for fishing, and we decided that they were right and the place they were at would do. So we went back and began the little climb down to the water.<br />
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The park we were at was heavily wooded and although the trail was clearly marked and well maintained, the trees around it were showing signs of the warm months. The fallen trees had become mossy and rotten during the winter, but had dried up and turned brittle in the summer heat. It was messy, but definitely looked safe and harmless. I looked at where the guys had climbed down and saw a spot just barely up the trail that looked like a more gradual climb and I thought that would be better seeing as both Megan and I had our hands full.<br />
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We began to tromp through the corroded mess, excited to have a grand old time. We walked past this old fallen log and I leaned on it for support as I tried to decide where my foot should step next. This was when things took a turn.<br />
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Megan gave a short shriek and I asked, "you ok?"<br />
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"There was a bug. Oh my gosh, it bit me!"<br />
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I turned around to brush whatever was on her off, and was met by something I had not anticipated. Black wasps, so big I thought they were beetles at first, were swarming around my friend, covering her back and landing on her arms.<br />
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I reached for her to help, but she was already running back up the hill. That was when they began to come after me. I hadn't realized we were in trouble until I felt the panic of not being able to get them off me. I dropped my things, abandoning them where Megan had hers, and ran. Megan reached the top and ran right, I ran left, both of us trying to get the nasty creatures off of our skin. My brother heard our screams from the bottom of the hill and had been hollering, asking what was wrong. Somehow, I don't know if Megan or I had screamed that there were bees, or if he had seen them chasing us, but he figured it out and began yelling instructions.<br />
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"TAKE YOUR CLOTHES OFF!" Came the order from the water. I was already ahead of him there and had stripped off my flannel, leaving it on the trail and running away from the mess of stingers and sharp teeth (or whatever wasps have in their mouths). I stood at the top of the hill shaking, watching the wasps swarm around our abandoned things. I'm not sure who asked what, they guys' voices were kind of mushed together in my brain at this point, and I couldn't see any of them. But someone asked if we were ok and what we wanted to do and all I could think was that I wanted my fishing pole. Which was just plain silly because there was no way I was going to venture back down there for a fishing pole and knowing how the stings felt, I was definitely not going to ask anyone else to.<br />
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It is no secret that I have a very -healthy in my opinion- fear of flying insects, especially things that can hurt me, specifically bee and wasp type creatures. I thought I was scared then, but that the worst was over and soon they'd settle and Megan and I would be able to walk down where the guys had previously stepped and it would be fine. It was right then that a few wasps began to fly around my head, landing on my arms. I ran a few steps down the trail - my scream alerting the guys (who were waiting for the wasps to settle so they could come up to us) and I heard Jeremiah say that they might have marked us. Apparently wasps and some bees are not only equipped to sting over and over without losing their stinger and dying, but they also mark their enemies so that they can find them by smell and finish off the job. I'm fairly certain I was marked as a threat because they chased me. Literally. I ran, and they flew in a straight line behind me.<br />
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When I couldn't hear them anymore, I stopped running to catch my breath and try to sort out what was happening in my brain. I can't remember the last time I've felt so terrified. You can call me a big wuss if you want, but this was horrific for me. So I stood there watching my hand shake and trying not to cry, when *Bonk!* ANOTHER ONE HIT ME. I didn't take the time to count, I just ran. I know I heard my brother yelling something, but I don't know what or if it was to me or not.<br />
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They took care of poor Megan, who got stung much more than me, and in much worse places. But she was able to stay pretty close by because I suppose they were too busy chasing me to keep bothering her. Once the guys had given her neosporin and made sure she wasn't going to have a heart attack, my brother came to find me. I was a fair distance back up the trail by the time he found me =P But he was really good at being a calming presence and telling me to buck up at the same time. We headed back down the trail where Megan met us with neosporin and deodorant (Thanks to Jeremiah! Apparently deodorant helps to hide the scent that they use to mark enemies so we weren't such a target anymore.) When we got back to the "path" to the water, we were met by Calvin risking being stung and retrieving our things. Both with his hands and long sticks =P What a guy =)<br />
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I did my best to kind of patch Megan up, she got stung up her back and a couple of places on the back of her arms that she couldn't reach. We picked up our newly rescued things and walked carefully down to the water, where Megan and I spent pretty much the entire day. We were glad for the water both because of paranoia/fear and because the cool temperature was soothing on our war wounds. We spent the day floating on a log and performing acrobatic tricks that required great skill also on said log, and watching the fellas create a raft and paddles from various logs and materials they found.<br />
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Despite the pain and fear, it really was an incredibly fun day. I am so blessed by the friendship I have with these guys (and Megan and Kessi!). It is so awesome to know that I have so many men in my life who are protective of me and care enough for me to have my back and take care of me when I'm hurt or scared.<br />
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Also, in case anyone is interested, we're pretty sure <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bald-faced_hornet">this</a> is what got us. Apparently they have one of the most painful stings in the wasp family. This made us feel much less like big babies for whining about the pain just when the wind blew across our injuries =P<br />
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<br />Netti Ruthhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11933690497259576209noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4494246838287976596.post-63070969902669286562012-07-20T17:38:00.001-07:002012-07-20T17:38:22.283-07:00Extra! Extra!I have a very dear friend, Megan, who shares my enthusiasm for thinking as well as general sillyness. Recently, we've started a joint blog that we can both write on, just because we think that collaboration is a good thing. It's always a wise thing to look at ideas from the perspective of others. So, we've started this blog, really in an effort to share our hearts and our love of Christ. We want to research and hunt and honestly just live intentionally in the love of God. We only have one post, but we'll be adding more soon! But I wanted to post a link to our little project just to get the ball rolling. Welcome! =)<br /><br />
<a href="http://kingdomcrux.blogspot.com/">Kingdom Crux</a>Netti Ruthhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11933690497259576209noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4494246838287976596.post-58682679770595779862012-06-19T00:28:00.001-07:002012-06-19T00:28:39.131-07:00[Untitled]There is a trend in my generation that I'm not quite sure I understand. We are immature, we are scared, we are apathetic. And we refuse to grow up. Let's get something straight right off the bat - I'm not immune.I am 22 years old, I live with my parents [and the rest of my family which is beside the point, but somehow made me feel better =P], I hold a fairly dead end part time job, I did just complete my associates degree - but I truly have no idea how to channel my passions into a career, I sometimes make bad decisions and choose to be irresponsible, and I just can't seem to grasp some basic foundations of a healthy life. It short, this strange phenomenon afflicts me too. <br />
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But I WANT to grow up. I have no desire to identify myself to anyone as a "kid" I don't want to live my life as a twenty or even thirty something pretending that I'm really five years younger and giving myself an excuse for immaturity. <br />
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There are some mile stones that our culture identifies as part of being an adult. Things like turning 18, moving out on our own, holding down a job, paying the bills, going to college, etc. All good things, all part of becoming a growing, functioning, and mature part of society. But I don't know that I'd say that those are the things that determine adulthood. I think that, from my point of view anyhow [and perhaps this is because I fall short on many of society's standards and want to believe that I am still an adult in my own right. Or I suppose I could be on to something here. It could be some of both, it could be none of either], emotional maturity is what kind of defines adulthood for me. Am I the same person no matter who I'm with? Am I the same person when I'm alone? Am I the same person when I talk to God? When I talk to my parents? When I talk to strangers? Or do I just play a role, fill a need?<br />
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I realize that everyone has different gifts and abilities that they bring to the table. So in different combinations of people, the "role" we play might be different. But I think that my generation is just filled to the brim with floaters. We flit, just waiting for someone to tell us what to do. Why on earth is that ok? Why do we not lead, why do we not fight? What the heck happened? My parents' generation was a working one. When they wanted or needed or needed something, they worked until they got it, and then worked more. But we, gosh, we are not that disciplined. We go, "it's haaaarrrdd" or "I don't like iiitttt" and then we quit. Or we get distracted or bored, and then we quit. There is a shocking lack of focus, of direction, of perseverance.<br />
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Maybe I shouldn't way "we", maybe these are my issues alone [but to say I'm the <i>only</i> person struggling with something sure sounds awfully conceited and inaccurate] but I don't think so because, unless I'm just super blind, I see it in other people my age as well.<br />
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I work in a middle school and even though my contact with the students is fairly limited, it is pretty obvious that this up coming generation is feisty! They are entitled, spoiled, and often arrogant, but by golly they're fighters. <br />
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I want to be like that. I don't want to be passive. I don't want to be immature and just kinda float around just because I don't know what else to do. I want to hunt something down, I want to pursue and chase, I want to commit. I refuse to be a statistic. I want to be a servant, I want to grow, and I want to embody the small amount of Christ's goodness that I am capable of.<br />
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I do not want to settle. I do not want to be one person with one friend, and a different person with another. I don't want my maturity to depend on what those around me are doing. I want to stand on my own feet and I want to be confident enough to not have to wait around for someone to tell me what to do. I don't want my growth to be paced by the growth of others. I want to grow as quickly or as slowly as God deems good for <i>me</i>.<br />
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I think that is something my generation for some reason lacks - we don't have a lot of willing leaders. We have a lot of insecure women and a lot of scared men. And our origins aren't an excuse - they might be a reason, but as soon as we can recognize it, we no longer have an excuse for not changing, for not growing. It's on<i> us</i>.<br />
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I've often been known to say, "I'm grown" to my family. Half in jest, half in seriousness. I am legally an adult, I've contributed to the household bills [not much, but some] since I had my first job and I've done an ok job at being responsible for my decisions and the consequences that might come from them. I have zero desire to back track or to be called [by myself or others] a "kid". I want to be responsible [that doesn't mean boring] and I want to be a good influence because I want to see others reach their full potential. But I am guilty of being selfish and lazy and at times apathetic. And I've decided that enough is enough. I don't need to wait around for someone to tell me to knock it off. I don't need to be led on a leash to truly be "grown".<br />
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By no means am I proclaiming myself to be a revolutionary leader, that idea actually terrifies me [there's that insecure women thing coming up]. But I am deciding for myself that I'm sick of complacency. I'm sick of dreaming and thinking, "if only". I want to be intentional and I want to do it without anyone telling me I should. And I think that it'd just be fabulous if other people my age would take this up as well! We have such talent and intelligence lurking under a stagnant facade. Imagine what a force we could be, imagine the good we could do- the causes we could surround, imagine the lives that could change - definitely not excluding our own. I don't want to roam, I want to search. I don't want to float, I want to explore.<br />
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And I don't want to do it solely for my benefit, and I don't want to do it alone.<br />
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I'm Netti, and I'm 22 years old. I love to write and to have adventures and stay up late and listen to stories. I love change and I love passion and the honor of helping and seeing others realize their potential.<br />
And [regardless of how my culture defines adulthood] I'm growing up.<br />
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<br />Netti Ruthhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11933690497259576209noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4494246838287976596.post-59816383011199022442012-04-29T00:55:00.000-07:002012-05-01T14:10:46.808-07:00Our youths didn't eat so others can, we've got some pretty awesome young'uns around here =D[30 hour famine]The youth group at my church just finished a fundraiser they were doing for an anti-hunger/poverty organization, World Vision.<br />
The idea was that they all got sponsors to pledge a certain amount of money while they took part in the fundraiser, and then that money goes to the organization. What was the actual activity you may ask? Well a whole group of middle school and high schoolers, as well as their dedicated leaders, all fasted together for 30hours. <br />
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[Also, my lovely sister, who also blogs on occasion, posted several pictures of the event on her site, <a href="http://straightfromaginger.blogspot.com/2012/05/i-spent-this-last-weekend-with-about-20.html">The Adventures</a>]<br /><br />
They all started on their own at 12:30 Friday afternoon, and then met at church that evening to all stay the night and to spend Saturday together. I wasn't there at all on Friday, and I didn't get there until around 1pm Saturday, so I can't fill you in on everything these wonderful people did. But the parts I was there for were thought provoking. The idea was to get the students to really begin to think outside themselves and to gain a nice big window into so many places on our earth that suffer from lack of what we consider basic rights. They watched a lot of hunger/poverty oriented clips that were informative, and discussed them of course =P And, since it is youth ministry, there were games a plenty. But many of the games they played reflected what they were attempting to recognize this weekend. Each team was a part of a "tribe" named for a country known to have high rates of hunger/poverty. And each tribe learned some about the specific hardships of their country, and had to function within those hardships for a few of the games. One example being a student who had "lost a leg" due to [if I remember correctly] "lack of medical service", having to participate in a game as if she had actually lost her leg, hopping the entire way. <br />
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For one game, they had to carry water from different places around the campus with difficult vessels with which to carry the water [ladles, dixie cups, etc]. Giving us just a microscopic taste of what it could be like to have to carry your water in from another location.<br />
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But the object, as one leader pointed out, was for everyone, leaders included, to think outside of ourselves. The point was to realize that so SO many people die from Malaria, a super preventable disease. That my daily shower uses more water than some people might see for a week or more. That even though 30hours is a huge deal for our culture, and then even more so for youth within this culture, some people are forced to go for much longer without food. I mean, people die from starvation. Their bodies literally feed off themselves until there's just nothing left. And we throw a fit if our food just doesn't come as quickly as we might like.<br />
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The idea was for the group to break their fast [after communion] together with a dinner this evening. So, since I was cooking said dinner, I didn't see a lot of the students' reactions, but from what I've heard from a few of them and many of the leaders is that it was a worthwhile and fairly impacting experience. I'm just mostly so proud of them! But I'm telling you seeing a slough of middle and high schoolers to consciously choose to not eat in order to benefit others is a rare thing. They make an impact on me every time I'm with them and I just can't get over how awesome they are! <br />
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So, if you want to benefit a great cause and you need something to do with a group for a day or two, I'd definitely recommend this! How cool would it be to be in a group all supporting each other in struggles that will benefit people who need it so much more desperately? Very very very cool =)Netti Ruthhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11933690497259576209noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4494246838287976596.post-80315435601131545682012-04-14T00:00:00.002-07:002012-04-16T20:04:41.815-07:00Love is...[Part II]<sup class="versenum" id="en-NIV-28670">1Corinthians 13:4- 7 "4</sup> Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. <sup class="versenum" id="en-NIV-28671">5</sup> It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. <sup class="versenum" id="en-NIV-28672">6</sup> Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. <sup class="versenum" id="en-NIV-28673">7</sup> It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres." <br />
[<a href="http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=1%20Corinthians%2013&version=NIV">Found Here</a>]<br />
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A little while ago, I kind of spoke to what love being patient means to me, and I'm thinking that I kind of want to make an exploration of love - based on these few verses - a little blog series.<br />
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So, next on the list is, "Love is kind", but I think that kind of mushes into love being patient and all of the other definitions in these verses. Kindness meaning loving in a friendly, generous, and warm hearted nature. Jeremy Taylor said once, "Love is friendship set on fire." I think that's about as accurate as I can get by what I mean by a kind love. <br />
Since "kind" doesn't seem to have a lot of room to explore, I think we should move right along to, "It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud."<br />
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"Envy: <span class="ssens">A painful or resentful awareness of an advantage enjoyed by another joined with a desire to possess the same advantage.<br /><br />Boast: 1). </span><span class="ssens"><b style="font-weight: normal;">T</b>o speak of or assert with excessive pride.</span><br />
2). To possess and often call attention to (something that is a source of pride) <<i>boast</i><i>s</i> a new stadium><br />
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Proud: <span class="ssens"><b style="font-weight: normal;">F</b>eeling or showing pride as<i></i></span><span class="ssens"><span class="break"></span> having or displaying excessive self-esteem.<br />[<a href="http://www.merriam-webster.com/">Merriam - Webster</a>]<br /><br />So if a real, true, pure, holy love doesn't do any of these things, then what would a whole and Godly love look like? Because the love I see going around today generally doesn't fit this mold well.</span><br />
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<span class="ssens">What I see today doesn't last very long - actually it last exactly the same length of time as it takes for one or both halves to get bored, or hurt, or to feel unneeded, or scared, or selfish. [I'm not trying to be dramatic here, I'm trying to observe the things I see that don't quite fit right].<br />What it seems our culture is wading through right now is this attitude of, "When you stop making me feel good, or you hurt my feelings, or I decide you're boring, or maybe you're not filling my need anymore, or maybe I'm just tired of having to fit another person into the equation, as soon as that happens, I'll drop you."<br /><br />It's heart breaking.<br /><br />Remember when you were in middle school, or even high school? The relationships we saw around us, or maybe that we were involved in, typically weren't made of lasting stuff. A long relationship then was a month. That mentality appears to have somehow clung onto our heels and has followed us into adulthood. "How can this relationship serve me? What can I get out of it?"<br /><br />But if real love doesn't envy, then it doesn't feel the need to be jealous of anything my significant other has. Friends, money, attention, etc. And then it has to work the other way, I shouldn't feel envy over the things they <i>give</i> to others either. If he's paying attention to another woman, and I know he loves me, it shouldn't matter. It shouldn't spark that deep insecurity, that gnawing at our cores. [I know there is something to be said for intuition, sometimes that gut feeling is right and maybe what seemed to be a simple conversation doesn't turn out as innocently as it appeared. But then that wouldn't be a pure love anyhow. And I know we ALL have our struggles. Sometimes the smallest things can set a flame to an insecurity we thought we buried long ago, I get that. But if it's a pure, honest love, then those things shouldn't, ideally, be the first things that jump to mind]<br />Love doesn't look for what it doesn't give me, it looks for what I can give.</span><br />
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<span class="ssens"><br />"It does not boast", it doesn't flaunt, it doesn't say, "Look at me! I have a boyfriend!" It doesn't say that I have worth because I have a guy looking at me. I don't think this means that we're not supposed to be happy about it and share our joy with others. If it is truly a selfless love, then, in my experience, people tend to want to know about it. I know that there's nosy people who always want to know everyone's business, and then there's that "mushy" stuff that I don't think anyone outside of the relationship actually <i>wants</i> to hear/see =P. But I think that if it's a solid love, other people kind of glean some joy from the others' happiness. I think that might be what not boasting your love means. That we don't have to shout it from the rooftops for attention or for validation, but that we simply enjoy it. We just love it =P.<br /><br />Anyone who thinks their relationship is perfect is just so out of the loop. No one person is perfect, then put two people together trying to know each other more than any one else, that's a recipe for a whole lot of mess. Anyone who thinks their significant other is perfect is probably in for a nasty surprise. BUT together, the two should make something beautiful, something powerful. I think that to be confident in this is so different than to be proud! Pride says, "I can, I am, I will". Confidence says, "We can, God is, We will" There is that ordained thing, that blessing I guess, that gives married couples after the heart of God just so much authority. That union, when used the way [I think] it way created to be, is something to reckon with.<br /><br /> </span><br />
<span class="ssens">Like I mentioned in my first entry about this, I'm 22. Never had a boyfriend, never been in a relationship. I know nothing - but I see a lot. I see what works and I see what fails. I think that's actually what took me so long to decide to write this, the fact that I really have little to no experience in the matter. But the heart doesn't need to be broken to know how to love. My heart breaks for the kids I see every day who are growing up with one parent, for some that's lucky. Some live with uncles or grandparents, or are in the foster system. That's not to demean those relatives or foster families at all! Anyone who is willing to step up and raise a child well is pretty awesome in my book. But kids NEED their parents. We all need that, and to grow up and develop without them alters our entire lives.<br /><br />I think that's mainly where my interest in this whole thing is coming from. I'm not in a rush to get married, not even to jump into a relationship, but I am in a rush to see the family dynamic restored in the lives of kids. I am in a rush to see the institution of marriage return to what it was meant to be - safe and strong. That is what I want to be to my kids and for them to be to theirs. I want to continue the chain through the generations, and I want it to be an epidemic. I want to see families flourish. And THAT is why I want to know the breakdown [as much as one can] of love. I just want to give it my best shot, because I want to be able to give my marriage and my children their best shot. And I want to see my generation and the ones following try and do the same. <br /><br /><3<br /> </span><br />
<span class="ssens"> </span><span class="ssens"><br /></span>Netti Ruthhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11933690497259576209noreply@blogger.com0